The thought that put it all in perspective...

When I said I had recently re-dedicated my life to Jesus, I am talking very recent. Like say Sunday. One of my biggest hang ups since then has been admitting my renewed love. What were the people that knew I wasn't really into the whole "church thing" going to think? Would they laugh at me? Would they make fun of me? Would we still be friends? I couldn't get over it.

So even though I had all these amazing thoughts and verses I wanted to post all over the internet and wherever else, I chose not to because I was ashamed. I thought it more important to keep friends. I didn't want them to know of my love for Him. But today at work, I had a realization.

Every day I show my love for a man, a worldly man, and I do so without shame, but I don't display my love for my redeemer as proudly. I have fear of what others will think of that, I have shame. Will other people's opinions save me? Will the love for my husband save me? No. But love of the Savior of man will save me.

Matthew 10:32-33 - "Whoever acknowledges me before men, I will acknowledge before my Father in heaven. But whoever disowns me before men, I will disown before my Father in heaven."